Rubber Bullets

I haven't written anything for awhile now. A lot of things have changed since the last time. My Angel has touched down in my life, I'm an uncle, and I'm living like a Young Lion....free to roam my own territory (until the Misses turns to Mrs.!) Life is good...yet, there's always the enemy creeping around the corner! You've ever notice why a compulsive liar continues to lie? They continue to run their lips! Sometimes they lie so much, that they tend to believe their lies are truth (no matter how much the end result hurts, they keep going.) Cheating can become ''addictive'' when one gets caught up. Some people continue in their ways without a care in the world. When caught, they try to justify their ways (even when the end results hurt.) Everything has a cycle in life. I know that I'm dealing with a situation; and, the situation's cycle needs to be broken. A lot of individuals say,''It's not a big deal!'' I beg to differ. Many men and women have fallen since the dawn of time from a condition we all know as lust. You can lust after money, cars, clothes, sex...the possibilities are endless! Sometimes, lust becomes an addiction. I compare my situation to being shot with rubber bullets (which I've never been shot with them before. I'm a rapper; metaphors are my things!) Even though I know it's wrong, I continue to go about my lustful ways. Rubber bullets hurt! They knock you down; yet, they don't kill you. Knowing this, I continue in my devilish deeds. I suppose if you get hit with enough rounds, something deadly will happen! I most definitely don't want to hurt myself, my Angel, or God. I want my future marriage and my relationship with God to rise and not fall. It's time to break the cycle! Rubber bullets may not kill you; but, eventually live rounds would pierce the soul. I'd rather have God guarding my heart then the devil claiming victory over my life! I DIE DAILY!!