Rubber Bullets

I haven't written anything for awhile now. A lot of things have changed since the last time. My Angel has touched down in my life, I'm an uncle, and I'm living like a Young Lion....free to roam my own territory (until the Misses turns to Mrs.!) Life is good...yet, there's always the enemy creeping around the corner! You've ever notice why a compulsive liar continues to lie? They continue to run their lips! Sometimes they lie so much, that they tend to believe their lies are truth (no matter how much the end result hurts, they keep going.) Cheating can become ''addictive'' when one gets caught up. Some people continue in their ways without a care in the world. When caught, they try to justify their ways (even when the end results hurt.) Everything has a cycle in life. I know that I'm dealing with a situation; and, the situation's cycle needs to be broken. A lot of individuals say,''It's not a big deal!'' I beg to differ. Many men and women have fallen since the dawn of time from a condition we all know as lust. You can lust after money, cars, clothes, sex...the possibilities are endless! Sometimes, lust becomes an addiction. I compare my situation to being shot with rubber bullets (which I've never been shot with them before. I'm a rapper; metaphors are my things!) Even though I know it's wrong, I continue to go about my lustful ways. Rubber bullets hurt! They knock you down; yet, they don't kill you. Knowing this, I continue in my devilish deeds. I suppose if you get hit with enough rounds, something deadly will happen! I most definitely don't want to hurt myself, my Angel, or God. I want my future marriage and my relationship with God to rise and not fall. It's time to break the cycle! Rubber bullets may not kill you; but, eventually live rounds would pierce the soul. I'd rather have God guarding my heart then the devil claiming victory over my life! I DIE DAILY!!

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I'm here. Here in this land of blogging??? I never thought that I'd be doing this; yet, I never thought that I'd be 26, no car, empty engagement ring, limited cashflow.... It's whatever. I suppose in life, we're supposed to focus on positives instead of negatives. With me, I guess I'm kind of stubborn when it comes to doing things of that nature. I always think about the past. How the cats use to laugh at me; how they use to talk behind my back. How the chicks use to look at me as if I were some type of ugmo-dude (I reckon I just made that up. It sounds ugly....I guess it fits). The doubt from some people. It all molds a human being into someone who basically felt like he had to prove everyone wrong. My mom always told me that I had nothing to prove to anyone. I use to turn my nose up to a comment like that. I felt like I had to slap five on any and everybody who ever said or did ya boi wrong. I felt that way until I gained a relationship with Christ. All those feelings kind of flew out the window after that. Life was rough before that. Life is still rough. As I got closer to God, I noticed that people noticed a change in me: a positive change. I kept pushing and pushing. More blessing headed my way. Of course, the sun doesn't shine 24 hours a day. It has to be interrupted by rain. That rain has to come so that every living organism is rejuvenated from its life source of life: water. When troubles start to rain on our lives, we know that God will revive us. He will open our eyes and allow us to see our faults and show us where He needs us to walk. Once we're revived, that sunshine comes back out. We'll be prepared for that rain the next time, and we'll rejoice through that rain...knowing that it'll just rejuvenate us. It'll rejuvenate us just as water rejuvenate grass that appears to be dead. Great day!!! Well, that's how I've been feeling for a while now. There's rain everywhere!!! I just need to thank God for it. If you never had any rain in your life; then, you might want to evaluate it! Anyways, here I am. This was well deserved for my eyes and my soul. All is well....I Die Daily!!!